I knit that hat during week 19-When I thought we were losing our baby. It was all I could do. I felt deep down in my heart that our baby would get to wear that hat one day even though my mind really wanted me to believe something else. It can only be explained as miraculous that I am still pregnant with our healthy baby girl. I am 33 weeks. That is crazy. We will be having her in 3 weeks on November 16th (unless something happens prior). I definitely have fears and feel like I know too much about some of the obstacles that will face the doctors when they deliver Lola, but . . .
“There is a peace I’ve come to know, though my heart and flesh may fail. There’s an anchor for my soul. I can say, it is well.”
And it is well.
I try to keep my mind focused on holding her and on both of us being healthy and happy. And getting to be a mommy and wife again and take care of my friends and family the way they have so sweetly taken care of our family the last few months.
Can’t wait to introduce you all to Lola Capri in a few weeks.
(lyrics from Chris Tomlin, “I Will Rise”)