So month one of Project Baby (like the longest month ever) has come and gone without success. It was weird, but I kind of just knew it was not going to happen, not the first month, that would just be way too easy, but just so everyone knows, am absolutely great with it being month 2!! I am trying to be positive, but also realistic. It is weird not wanting to let yourself down. Or even anyone else. It is definitely a strange place to be, much different than the first time. I am struggling a bit with the “science and procedure” aspect of what seemingly would be a natural occurence. But, I am also grateful that we have doctors and medicine . And it makes me realize more and more what a true gift Madeira is.
So, we “celebrated” the bad news with sushi and wine. What else do non-pregnant people do right?
A quick rundown of what has been happening the last few weeks. Last time I wrote I was heading for my HSG procedure in a couple of days. Well, it was not as terrible as I had been warned of which was great. But the amount of drugs I had to take to prepare for it was a huge bummer. ..since I am allergic to shellfish, they required me to take prednisone and benadryl, a ton of it, prior to the procedure, something about the dye they use being a similar allergen. On top of the clomid, antibiotic and ibuprofen. So for this non pill popping and already super anxious girl, that was not a fun 48 hours. I was a HOT MESS. But, the good part of being on all of the drugs was that I did not feel a thing when the actual procedure happened. I will leave you to google HSG if you would like to get the details, but I can see how it would be uncomfortable for some. Anyways, results were Ok from that test, one side open, one side not, but possibly still is and just did not test properly. But the DR said it only reduces chances by 10% a year, something about a very driven egg. My eggs better be driven.
The clomid appears to be doing its job, so now we just need all of the other pieces to come together. Here is to the magical Month 2!